It’s been a while, I admit. A few months in fact. Recent happenings: I went to Manhatten to visit my brother, and other than that have become a big walking ball of stress. AP exams are coming up quickly, about 2 more weeks in fact. I have three exams to worry about and barely any time to worry about them! My AP classes are relatively under control, however I am very worried about History…that is absolutely killing me! AP Language and AP Statistics should be fine, but I am just so worried about History! All I can do is study and pray, so i guess that is my plan of attack for this one.
34 days of school left, as of today. Everything is coming to an end. With the end of school comes the end of so many other things, structure for one, friendships for another, as well as those dastardly AP classes (that one i am happy about!). Leaving school for the summer is always a melancholy time for me. I feel like it is such a loss because school becomes your life and your outlet, it becomes your second home. To no avail though, I always have to go back home and spend the whole summer cooped up in a steamy Florida house with two very argumentative sisters. At least this summer I will be enrolled at the local community college and taking a few classes with my friends, just get the basics under my belt before I graduate in a year. Speaking of which, there is just over a year until I graduate high school. Now THAT is nerveracking. It just gives me this uncomfortable feeling that I actually will be leaving home. I am thinking that I will apply to all the state schools in Florida, and hope to get accepted into many of them, because I am guaranteed entrance into one because I am in the top 20, so why not have it be the one of my choice. I am thinking either Florida Atlantic or University of West Florida. Also, I am going to apply to a bunch of states up north. Mostly arts schools though. If possible I want to persue singing at Julliard. (Big dream huh?) Singing to me is that nagging little feeling in the back of my mind that says “I am what you want to do, come to me, sing, risk all of your monetary values and persue a career in singing!” I know it will catch up to my common sense sometime, maybe it already has.
I have an audition on Sunday infact, for a $500 scholarship towards voice lessons. It is through the Hernando County Jazz society and 3 people are recieving it. I am hoping and praying that not many people are auditioning for it, so that I have a better chance. I know that if I get it, my mind will be made up and I will definately want to persue a career in singing. Pray for me and be thinking of me at 3:15. That is my audition time, and boy am I mighty nervous.
Anyway, for now I’ll just relish in my nerves and try my best to sound good.
Thanks for reading!
Peace out Trout
