It’s been a while, I admit. A few months in fact. Recent happenings: I went to Manhatten to visit my brother, and other than that have become a big walking ball of stress. AP exams are coming up quickly, about 2 more weeks in fact. I have three exams to worry about and barely any time to worry about them! My AP classes are relatively under control, however I am very worried about History…that is absolutely killing me! AP Language and AP Statistics should be fine, but I am just so worried about History! All I can do is study and pray, so i guess that is my plan of attack for this one.
34 days of school left, as of today. Everything is coming to an end. With the end of school comes the end of so many other things, structure for one, friendships for another, as well as those dastardly AP classes (that one i am happy about!). Leaving school for the summer is always a melancholy time for me. I feel like it is such a loss because school becomes your life and your outlet, it becomes your second home. To no avail though, I always have to go back home and spend the whole summer cooped up in a steamy Florida house with two very argumentative sisters. At least this summer I will be enrolled at the local community college and taking a few classes with my friends, just get the basics under my belt before I graduate in a year. Speaking of which, there is just over a year until I graduate high school. Now THAT is nerveracking. It just gives me this uncomfortable feeling that I actually will be leaving home. I am thinking that I will apply to all the state schools in Florida, and hope to get accepted into many of them, because I am guaranteed entrance into one because I am in the top 20, so why not have it be the one of my choice. I am thinking either Florida Atlantic or University of West Florida. Also, I am going to apply to a bunch of states up north. Mostly arts schools though. If possible I want to persue singing at Julliard. (Big dream huh?) Singing to me is that nagging little feeling in the back of my mind that says “I am what you want to do, come to me, sing, risk all of your monetary values and persue a career in singing!” I know it will catch up to my common sense sometime, maybe it already has.
I have an audition on Sunday infact, for a $500 scholarship towards voice lessons. It is through the Hernando County Jazz society and 3 people are recieving it. I am hoping and praying that not many people are auditioning for it, so that I have a better chance. I know that if I get it, my mind will be made up and I will definately want to persue a career in singing. Pray for me and be thinking of me at 3:15. That is my audition time, and boy am I mighty nervous.
Anyway, for now I’ll just relish in my nerves and try my best to sound good.
Thanks for reading!
Peace out Trout
It is 11:37 a.m…might you take a crack at where I am? Yes, yes, I am at school. The wonderful sights and smells filling my eyes and nose to the limit. I mean how happy can one get when one sees the dilapidated hallways and the rude boys and girls who dress inappropriately, and smell the perfume and cologne that fills the hallways, as if it was dumped in buckets on all of the students? Well, anyway, I am in business class…possibly the most pointless class I have ever taken, and I have discovered that I can access this site through Websense. Websense, by the way, is the worst proxy block ever. Nothing can get around it…I mean, I try to go to Christian websites BLOCKED! I try to go to my email BLOCKED (well, until recently), I try to go to various websites, that are truly up to no good, BLOCKED. This is like the school system in general, everything is blocked. Ripped jeans, certain attire, language, contents of backpacks, topics being discussed, cell phones, iPods, mp3 players, and a true multitude of technology, BLOCKED. Though I really can’t care less about the first five things listed, I do care for the rights of myself as an American and the rights of others. Who is the school system, to systematically strip us of all rights as we walk through the door at 7:30 in the morning. One of the main things that irks me is the ban on cell phone use. Believe you me, I don’t want to just take out my cell phone in the middle of class and chat away, but i do wish we could use it during our lunch period, to make important calls: arranging for a ride home, arranging after school activities, calling to schedule an appointment somewhere, calling to cancel an appointment. Instead, for any of these things, you have to find one of your teachers who is compassionate enough to let you use their phone, and then have the whole class “eavesdrop” as you ask your mom if you can go to the history review session that day. I believe that is ridiculous. Case in point, all rights of students are taken away at the threshold of learning, at the door of the school.
As a side note, new years resolutions are going great! I am praying more, keeping a prayer journal, have been eating healthy (no bread), drinking enough water, doing my work, and being nice! I’m on quite a roll, if I do say so myself!
So last night I watched The Village…you know, directed by M. Night Shamylan? I was really into it, i loved it…up until the end, or maybe you can say halfway through. At that point, my sister Julia started saying “I bet they are actually in modern times!” Saying this, after not understanding the entire movie until then, i disregarded it. But then they were talking about Ivy (who might I add, was played wonderfully by the actress, and has a stunning natural beauty) going through Covington woods to get medicine. This completely reminded me of a book I read when I was younger called Running Out Of Time by Margaret Peterson Haddix. When the ending came along, and they were actually in present day, but were living in an 1800 style community, I was just a little disappointed. First of all, how could my sister have predicted this, unless it was very obvious…; second, why on earth would this be so remarkably similar to a young adult book that I read when I was in fourthish grade. I can’t get over the similarities and feel a little cheated out of a good movie, because the movie was basically the book with a bit of a twist to the plot. Now, although I thoroughly enjoyed the movie: great acting, good plot, suspense, all the right elements, I was very disappointed when it came to the similarities between Running Out of Time, and the movie. I guess I’ll just have to get over it, but still….I mean really.
As for new years resolutions, I am doing great. I have prayed so much more in the past day and have also done good on eating healthy and drinking water. Go Laura 2.0!
So here we go with the second post. Well, it is sunday the 4th. 361 days left of the new year, and that means 361 days left to make a difference in the world and in myself. I don’t want to be the same person I was years ago, last year, or even yesterday. I want to be the new and improved version, Laura 2.0. So therefore, my so-far-neglected new years resolutions are put into effect, right now. I mean that too, at 3:41 p.m. on this sunday the fourth, I start to be a better person–Develop a deeper relationship with God, Treat myself with respect, eat healthier and drink more water, try to be as nice as pie to my sister (who might i add, is the epitome of brattiness, but that is between you and me), and just be a well rounded individual like i should be already. One of those resolutions includes not being afraid to try to break into the Christian Music Scene…I want to be on the charts, and in people’s hearts so bad, but I have done nothing about it (I just made up that resolution now, but it sounds good right?). Time is running out for me, well at least the time window of the stereotypical 15-25 year old “young musician.” So from this point forward, I am the practicing version of my new and improved self. I am Laura 2.0.
Well, got to get this over with soon enough…the first post. If you think about it, well you don’t even have to think about it to know it, but there has to be a first at everything. In my life, I have chronicled miraculous events…my first step, my first day of school, my first little sister, my first time picking up an instrument, my first performace, my first play, my first broadway show, my first time going to a big city (my first time being away from my family coinciding), my first day of high school, my first boyfriend, my first heartbreak, so on and so forth. What I am saying is, those experiences have profited me greatly and have proved to be wonderful learning experiences…as I hope this blog will. Though I know that these words that I am typing, at this exact moment, are only a microscopic percentage of everything on this world wide database I have found myself in, I can only hope they benefit me and the people who read it.
